Profile.

 Name:
 LAI XUANJIE JASON.
Birthday:
 02/05/1990.
Home:
 SINGAPORE.
Job:
 STUDENT @ TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC APPLIED SCIENCE SCHOOL.
Pets:
 ALL DIED LONG AGO
Political:
 N/A.
Listening to:
 TOO MANY TO LIST.
Fearing:
 NEGATIVE RESULTS.
Loving:
 GOOD TIMES.
Hating:
 LACK OF VITAMIN M.
Wanting:
 A COMPANION.
Needing:
 A LIFE.
Hoping:
 BETTER TOMMORROW.
Thinking:
 ABOUT MANY THINGS I SHOULDN'T BE THINKING ABOUT.
Wondering:
 ABOUT EVERYTHING.
Realizing:
 THAT LIFES A JOKE.
Learning:
 NOTHING.
Dreaming:
 NIGHTMARES.
Craving:
 $6 ECONOMIC BEEHOON.
Quoting:
 "THERE ARE NO BEST FRIENDS,ONLY FRIENDS THAT KNOW YOU BEST".
"THOSE THAT MIND DON'T MATTER,THOSE THAT MATTER DON'T MIND"

Adores

 Online chat/games
Chilling with friends
Karaoke
All you can eat MEAT
Slacking

Loathes

 VEGETABLES
Peanuts
LOW EQ people
Durian
Anything else that you know i hate

Friends
  • 4G
  • geraldine
  • nerissa
  • wenjie
  • keith
  • tingxu
  • moses
  • boonwei
  • jasvin
  • zhu en
  • roy
  • special seven
  • jun ru
  • grace foo
  • weijie
  • yvette
  • DHSNPCC
  • dion
  • xun xiang
  • siew mai
  • crystal
  • grace
  • zoey
  • jocelyn
  • ASSC
  • clarissa
  • liwei
  • aaron
  • glenn
  • janson
  • alfred
  • mashitah
  • joey
    Wishes

     New computer to replace my fried one
    New HDD to replace my smashed one
    iPhone
    Good final GPA
    A good-friend

    Wall of memoirs

    Thanks

     LPhoenix
    Blogger
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    • Friday, January 01, 2010
    |7:17 PM|


    wanted to message and call, but decided against it.

    Whether that was a decision made by the brain or one made by the heart.

    Its so simple yet complex indefinitely.
    An epiphany in its own right

    to strive for one's success
    to give for others

    How? I ask myself,
    for why would such emotion stem from knowing and not knowing the behaviour(s) of others around,

    knowing that its not under my jurisdiction to control others and know their whereabouts.

    A small grey area, is where i tread.
    the line between existing and not.

    the choice to isolate oneself but knowing the fear of losing the care and concern of those that matter

    to want to receive attention, yet not bask in the spotlight

    control. it has always been a major player.

    to wish to control the uncontrollable
    to seek and learn the unknown

    its a struggle like no other.

    time may ease the pain, but it also reignites the moments of anguish that come with it

    the life of irony; i seek to live without


    ~~~~~~~

    the other is someone. i am myself.
    there is no basis of comparison
    Do not express.
    Do not act based on emotions.
    Do not do things i would regret
    Do control.
    Do smile.
    Do be happy.
    Do appreciate.
    Do believe.
    Do Trust.

    "The only problems that exist are the ones that you yourself create. "



    And I realized...
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