Thursday, December 31, 2009
|9:13 PM|

~MLIA~

tonight's the last day of the year, 2009 , that is. usually the last day of the year would be spent celebrating in style, either out clubbing or chilling with some close friends.

People get half-days off and some get the full day too, yet today, all i got was being cooped up in the research core and having my 'lunch' at 5 pm, if its still called lunch.

i was rushing to complete the PCR run before the night was over.

so that i wouldnt have to pick myself out of bed the next day on the start of the new year and head to lab just to do a gel electrophoresis test.

I chose to stay and work for the long hours, so i've got no basis to complain about anything.

The brain decrees, the heart wavers

I'm jealous, no doubt, of the countless other people who get to spend the day off and meeting with their significant others and friends. All the company i had for the long hours inside were eppendorf tubes.

Tube after tubes,

pipette tips after tips, there seemed no end for them.

even in my dream, they would surface with a sentient consciousness. goes to show how much i think about it. and it wasn't a pleasant dream (not one i would rather have)

if not for the occasional facebook update or messenger chat inside, i swear i would have died.

sent out some messages, but knowingly, there would be little or no reply. ( gotta get used to it )

I just have to realise to myself, sometimes, you just gotta suck it up and live the lone life.

its hard, i wont disagree.

all i ever wanted for christmas and the new year;

someone to hug

someone to share the warmth

someone to hold my hands and not let go

companionship. i looked for that. but end up with nothing. that in itself, is another issue.

soon, i should get used to 'hugging' myself to keep warm or that single blanket, present to shield myself from the outside world.

i dream too much, and 'do' too little.