Saturday, December 12, 2009
|12:14 PM|

In the countless years of education, remarks i've received on my report cards always have something to do with me having to "participate more actively in class" This trend lasted till sec 2, where a change was noted in sec 3, with the opposite being listed.

"Jason is able to air his thoughts and opinions well and is a good communicator with his peers."

(i swear the teachers have some kind of drop down menu to choose the remarks from)

She probably chose the wrong option or didn't.

Yes, yours truly is shy. Yet sometimes i'm just like a machine gun on autofire; not stopping and just keeping on firing.

I'd like to liken my behavior to something near the idea of action potential.

Basically, it constitutes an "all or nothing" response.

i.e. I too, possess some sort of threshold level. Break that level and i would be more than happy to talk and crap or whatever not with you.

Yet, same thing applies, if the basic minimum of the threshold is not reached, i would be more than happy to hole myself up in a corner and not talk at all.

seems kinda selfish huh, that i need others to make the first step in talking to me. But recently, i've become more open and "crazy" too. so it goes both ways.

not many know about how i truly behave. For one, i have an excellent memory which is often put to the wrong use in remembering stuff that i shouldnt remember or keeping notes on mundane stuff that are irrelevant to the course that i'm doing. That's just me, i suppose.

An overactive mind; Its true that i don't get dreams at night, but much of the brain's energy is translated into stupid thoughts that race through my head and dwell on my subconcious mind.

thinking too much on the words that are said, and paying no heed to words unsaid. Practical yet impractical. and its hard to change.

i myself don't know what i'm getting at here. but its okay; no one actually gets what i say anyway :)

be it good or bad

i guess thats all i'll be leaving in this entry.

till next time when i feel like it...

which may be quite soon or far from now...

just so you know... i'm happy when you are happy...