transparent
unnecessary
unneeded
ignored

but a few words to describe.

moments are many when words become a formality
i thought a promise was made back long ago, but i guess it was just a mere passing statement

figurehead

the meaning it entails.
how apt

to just give green lights and "approve" things,
to just listen and listen and listen
to be the "shield" when remarks go awry
to be the ultimate sucker; to suck it up

precisely thats what i can and will do; to SIU
why bother raising this personal ignorance issue when all it does is make the program falter
thinking bout the big picture, its just a name.

maybe its because my opinion is worth little; or it does not bear any sense
maybe its because i didn't have the initiative to ask for updates
maybe its because i didn't know how to control people; to be stern or to joke
maybe its because i choose to feel this way

many maybes; none certainty

perhaps i should not appear; just disappear and hide away in a corner
no one needs me to be around anyway;
even i, am unclear of what my role is...

many times i felt like letting it go; taking it as passing remarks or bad moods on their parts
but the cold treatment; it sucks

it sure does.

when i ask; all i get is silence

all i ever wanted was week 0 to run smoothly
if it needs be for me to disappear, i will; since my presence is negligible

very soon, my place, my existence
will be taken over; it doesn't matter anyway...
call me power hungry, call me hungry for credit, call me a good-for-nothing
it doesn't matter.
when people promising to work together, drift apart
it feels so different
That's the reason why PIRATES was such as success
THATs why...

It's all i ever wanted....

And I realized...
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