SOME KIDS ARE JUST TO EGOCENTRIC

can't friggin grow up

i return home just to see, chat window after chat window of work
all asking for my answers.

open my inbox to see a chunk of highlighted red info.
how sweet...

so its like my bloody fault i am stalling OLTC's progress.
ITS MY FUCKING FAULT THEY CANT MOVE
ITS MY FUCKING NITTY GRITTY FETISH THAT CAUSES THINGS THAT ARE EXPECTED TO BE CONFIRMED TO REMAIN UNDECIDED
ITS MY FUCKING FAULT TO MAKE EVERYONE COME BACK AND SEE MY FUCKING BLACK FACE

SO FUCK.

ONE DAY, IF KIDS COULD GROW UP BEING A PACKET OF MILO, THROWN INTO HOT WATER AND MADE TO HOMOGENISE, IT WOULD MAKE THE WORLD A MUCH BETTER PLACE.

SERIOUSLY, TELLING ME THAT "INSERT NAME" IS NOT COMING TO SCHOOL BECAUSE "INSERT NAME" WISHES TO CUT HAIR IS JUST FUCKING ABSURD.

I KNOW FROM THE START THAT ITS NOT GOING TO BE EASY, RIGHT FROM THE FUCKING BEGINNING.
YET I STILL TRIED TO MOVE ON. KEYWORD = TRIED

LIKE OTHERS I RAN INTO OBSTACLES, AND OVERCAME SOME OF THEM
EVEN WHEN MY PILLARS FELL, I SUCKED MY THUMB AND GRITTED MY TEETH
REGARDLESS OF MY TASKS AT HAND, I WOULD JUST HAVE TO BE SUPERMAN

ITS GETTING ON MY NERVES, WHEN I'M EXPECTED TO CHURN OUT THINGS AT A MUCH HIGHER RATE EVEN WHEN I'M ON MY OWN.
EVEN WITH THE OTHER HELP PROVIDED BY SENIORS, WHOS THE ONE SUPPORTING ME FROM BELOW?!

I DARE NOT RAISE MY VOICE, FOR FUCKING FEAR OF PEOPLE SAYING I'VE AN ATTITUDE PROBLEM
YET, THINGS DON'T GET DONE, OR I GET TRAMPLED OVER IF I DON'T

I PREFER TO REMAIN SILENT WHEN GETTING CHALLENGED,
I MEAN WHY BOTHER WASTING MY FUCKING SALIVA ON SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T EVEN FUCKING COMPREHEND WHAT I FUCKING SAY?

AND THEIR RESPONSE?
"HE'S IGNORING ME"

WTF LA

FUCKING GROW UP KIDS!
ITS LIKE FUCKING 1 WEEK TO OLTC, AND PEOPLE STILL CAN TELL ME,
HEY, I GOTTA GO TO CLASS BBQ!

A DAY OFF IS FINE TO ME, BUT NOT 12 DAYS OF STONING AT HOME ROTTING ON THE COUCH.

GONE ARE THE DAYS OF FUCKING SELF INITIATED PEOPLE,
KIDS ARE CONTENT TO JUST ROT, YES FUCKING ROT, AT HOME

AND TO YOU;
ITS NOT THAT I DON'T WANT TO HELP SUPPORT THE EVENT
NOR AM I PURPOSELY TRYING TO MAKE IT FAIL

I'M FUCKING TRYING TO HELP AS MUCH AS I CAN, AND YET EVERYTHING IS THROWN/DUMPED ONTO ME

YES, SUCK THUMB, SHALL I SUCK IT TILL MY MOUTH GETS ORAL CANCER?
FUCKING CONSIDER OTHERS BEFORE RANTING OFF YOUR FUCKING LOUDHAILER MOUTH
STOP ACTING CUTE AND SHOWING 2 FACES IN FRONT OF THE KIDS
ITS FUCKING RETARDED
STOP THINKING YOU'RE INDISPENSABLE AND THAT YOU'RE ENTITLED TO SHOW ATTITUDE

LET ME REMIND YOU,
IT'S SAD, BUT JUST FUCKING LISTEN TO ME WHEN I GOT SOMETHING TO SAY!
IF YOU DON'T FUCKING KNOW, FUCKING PUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH TO GOOD FUCKING USE!
INSTEAD OF BLASTING YOUR BOLLYWOOD RINGTONE EVERYWHERE YOU FUCKING GO, MAKE YOURSELF USEFUL LA!


I'VE SERIOUSLY NOTHING ELSE TO SAY,
DON'T EXPECT ME TO BE VERY NICE TO ANYONE AT THIS POINT
ANYTHING MORE WILL BE A BONUS!

PEACE OUT

And I realized...
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