Tuesday, January 06, 2009
|1:37 AM|
WARNING: HOT CONTENT! (R)
i seriously don't know whats ****ing wrong with me. its like everything around me is getting so ****ed up that even i have no idea about what the **** is going on.
it gets to the stage whereby, all i wanna do is to shut the **** up and hide in one ****ing corner and rot, watching the things unravel by themseleves.
i'm supposed to ****ing help myself, to not let myself dwell in unhappiness, but look what ****ed up shit i'm in.
****! I'm not supposed to say it. but its ending up being splashed all over my post, with hideous blatant appearances.
meetings after meetings, projects after projects, person after person.
**** it.
I brought a 9kg bag to school, had to take a ****ing cab since it was so darn ****ing heavy that even walking to the interchange ****ing broke my shoulder.
i reached at 9+, when my ****ing lessons start at 2.
WHY bother?!
****! **** ! ****!
i've got no answer. it just gets on my nerve when you're trying to do something and others just don't match up.
it just makes me so "out", that why am i even doing it all in the first place.
I don't need anything else.
I just need to rest. and ****ing lots of it.
but can i even get it, when the ****ing stream of work never stops.
and yet tmr, i'm gonna get a ****ing toning down from others regarding projects and nonsense.
i want to do it well, i know i do.
but ****! It just doesn't make me want to do it anymore,
to read through everything clearly, to settle problems, to render suggestions on a experiential and personal level
I'M NOT A ****ING SUPERMAN!
like wth?
i finally understand how the QUEEN felt last year.
it just makes me want to ****ing take everything and do it myself.
RAWR
i need my ****ing sleep, but i doubt i'm gonna get any...
Note: A total of 23 ****(s) were used in this post.
And I realized...
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