i dont know.
i seriously dont

why i did what i did earlier. it was just wrong.
i overlooked so many points which i already know.
to aim the person instead of the problem.

for that, i am very sorry.

sometimes i dont know what i am doing.
in my capacity as a main comm.
as an organiser, there are so many doubts i have with myself


why must i keep pushing others when i myself sometimes dont follow the rules i set?
its ironic.

sometimes i wonder i really can make it as a role model for them

i know
i admit

i made many mistakes in the meeting earlier, and i still repeat my apology.
i do hope that you can forgive me for me overlooking the issue.

its my first time as a org, and for the short time i was org for sports fest, despite it being rather simple compared to week 0, i was kind of lost.

i just dont know.

can i book a date to jump?

i just hope i can last this all.

i need support. LOTs of it

and to you... i do treasure you a lot :)

wonder how life will be like in the coming weeks

the level of unreadiness...
inhumane so as to speak

an excerpt from MOV

"If you prick us, do we not bleed? If you tickle us, do we not laugh? If you poison us, do we not die? And if you wrong us, shall we not revenge?"

we're human too


all i hope is that we can go through this alive and kicking and cry tears of joy (like i did silently) when it is all done and over.


peace

And I realized...
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