i need a place, somewhere to scream it all out.
been keeping it inside me for a very long time.

everytime i stand still, i just watch the people around me changing, evolving and adapting.
tensions fly, friendships form. its all part and parcel.

i was tasked with a mammoth task, only to be thankful that i have 2 brilliant co-orgs and a wonderful team behind me.
but as each day goes by, i wonder..

the things that i do, the time i spent.
would it really make a difference?
i just dont know!


somehow if i could erase myself from this existence, and watch how life goes by without me, it would be kind of interesting.
yet, reality kicks in and it all seems too soon..
i've got so much to say, but so little to the people around me

the tiny ray of hope, pining for you to be by my side
if only you were there to listen to me pouring out my shit

its a complicated world, every day, i piss people off... unknown to the reasons why

people took the time, the effort to push himself just so he could render assistance, but i flatly said no need.

what was i thinking? i just failed horribly,
but like wallace said, the org should be the last person to break.

to eugene,

i really appreciate you for being there whenever i seek assistance,
whenever i feel down or confused.
thank you for contributing and sacrificing your time to give aid
i understand its hard for you in your position too,
so thank you for all that u have done.
to me, anymore is a bonus for me, and i am really very grateful.


if only...
darling, i need you now more than ever :(

the world is always full of if only(s)...

And I realized...
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