just got back from ze house and making a trip to pass grace back her mag on bike!

anyway, happy 19th birthday to ze. he turned 19 before i even turned 18.. wtf?
i am damn tired now la. gonna rest for tmr and pack my bag for oltc, which is on monday.

received an sms today. supposed to order the stuff for the campfire, but i hesitated.
cause i dont wanna waste it and over purchase or under purchase stuff.
i hate it when someone does this
"you are the incharge, you decide"
it may be simple on the surface, but the hidden agenda?
not so simple i guess

to me, its just a simple way of screaming the message,"I ENOUGH ALREADY LA, YOU INCHARGE OF THIS THEN GO DO IT YOURSELF LA"
suddenly i am like thrown into the ocean left to fend for myself.

floating or floundering hopelessly?
the latter would be more appropriate.
thinking of a campfire concept is not easy
thinking of a revolutionary campfire concept is even harder.
yet people expect the same results or better within the same amount of time.
call this the drive for success, but stress can be a double edged sword

argue that stress is what made humans this successful and is what prolongs the survival of our kind on the face of earth but there are somethings that cant be handled alone...

it isnt easy to handle the stuff by oneself when at one time, you could be looked up to as a mentor, yet another, u shake this statement and say u would only be the hands and legs.

a brain i do have.
ideas-- naught
if you can say i am not up to the task, i challenge you to think of a successful plan that is feasible.
but to let me make it myself,

i myself know, and honestly speaking , i am very mentally tired from all this. yet in the end, credit will go to the people who execute the programme and not the background workers.
yet another flaw in the system

jason lai is very tired of orientation.
he seriously is
nothing makes more sense to him than
"being i/c of mass dance when he is not even present for the dance"

think about it


all i wanted was a listening ear from you
and nothing would seem too unsurmountable


And I realized...
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