one word to summarise my day : F**K
yes, you heard me. its the F word.

actually it wasnt that bad till the end of the friggin day.
QUOTE
"i'm very irritated by having to follow up with you all and having to find things and chase you all. I'm a student too you know!"

SO THATS WAD that someone said to me. and it made my insides boil. somehow it struck a nerve with me and i am VERY IRRITATED by the words.

In response to the statement," yar, so you're irritated. but what about us? ARen't we equally irritated by your response. i have already been NICE by not talking back. in fact i have already given many people FACE already by not shouting into your face directly but rather opting to take a more toned down approach and speaking in a NICER tone. and i mean it. ITS NOT GOOD to take my approach for granted. WHY?

i know i'm not indispensable but do you have to penalise me for it? so what if u're so and so. IN CHARGE of everything, so i understand, yes its a big responsibility, but does manpower welfare come first? you could settle everything perfectly, logistics and programming and what not.
FLAWLESS, but what would it amount to if your peers and helpers were to be unhappy and consequently not work for u.

wont it amount to nothing?

perhaps its my highly sensitive nature, ready to explode at the mere sight of a trigger. but i can safely say that i've NOT shown any outsider my bad temper yet. i'm very very sure you would NOT want to be the first to experience it.
kudos to those that have been able to cope with the pressure and school work at the same time.i know i haven done a very good job at doing so. in all honesty, i have already given up the idea of doing my very best for campfire. because it seems that no matter how hard i try, there would be some people who do not appreaciate it at all.
yes, go ahead and say about our inefficiency, but werent you the same last year? asking us to voice out our complaints, would be want to? its social stigma we are talking about here. anyway theres one thing i am VERY unhappy about.

that is the phrase "THINK ABOUT IT". why? because every freaking time i give a proposal, i get this F**KED UP phrase back. no definite answers. take the campfire programme as example.

it started as a 40min game program. i spent 3 WHOLE WEEKS thinking of the game ideas, even going as far to ask many people around me. the end result? everything getting shot down and i was asked to "THINK ABOUT IT".
next, MR X suggested doing a cheering program. ok, so it was kind of good theoretically, but MR Y came in said that it was not practical because maximum participation was not achieved.
then PERSON Z came in and said, since everything is not practical, why not we have a FREE AND EASY session.
at first, the free and easy session was rejected for cause of no objectives. then after a period of 5 weeks. FREE AND EASY IT WAS. WTF LAR.

so now i have to submit a PROPOSAL FOR A FRIGGIN free and easy program.
not as easy as it sounds.

FREAKING HELL. BET MY T-SHIRT READS
I AM "PISSED OFF BADLY"

And I realized...
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