i feel so helpless...
why?
if only time could be turned back, and many things that have happened would be whisked back into the parallel plane.

its not much easier when the people around you are going their seperate ways and all of a sudden, no one seems to be there.

honestly, its quite lonely at home and i really miss going to school.
guess its a love-hate relationship, haizzz

anyway,these few days at home, i've been doing nothing much, only went out with my squad mates yesterday and i really enjoyed their company.
it seems that the 4 years together really made us much closer, even to the point that if you asked me to choose between my class and my squadmates,
the answer would be downright obvious,
not that i'm biased or anything, but these people really made a difference to my life

even when i was down, they were there to help me get back on my feet,
no matter what life threw at me,they were around to share the blows...
guess without my squad, there wouldn't be the jason you know around typing this now

so,today was really a bad day...
again about the same reasons...

had a bust-up with my parents over the job issues and my staying at home and slacking
yea,i admit i was slacking but, at least i made an effort to do something worthwhile like reading the encylopedias and stuff,

and the job, it was a co-ercing, it was because i was at the end of my tether with my parent's incessant naggings about going to find a job
and it came to a point when i actually just took up the job just to "shut up" my mum.

so now, all i can do is to hope that the job will work out well and hope the bad 'karma' blows over soon..


on another note, thanks to geraldine for lending me your chemistry notes <3
it really helps to da3 fa1 my time while catching up with my studies :)

so... thats so much i wanna say, and if not for this blog, i wouldn't have an outlet for all my stresses and pent-up energy.
coz it seems to be getting harder and harder to commune with my parents....

thanks to all you guys just for being there....

And I realized...
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