no matter how much i try to pretend its not affecting me, i just now i fail horribly
why u may ask?
coz i keep it all inside me
perhaps its this trait that made me what i am today
anti-social and such
i never really say what my heart thinks out, even to people closest to me
coz to me,
i am the sort that would rather keep it all inside than share the burden and "impede" others,
selfless or stupid
i'd like to think its the latter, coz we all know that keeping it all inside would just be like keeping a timebomb; one day it would just explode
precisely, i would rather suffer in silence than hurt others

thats the reason why i am so quiet to strangers and the first impression that i give others is a really cold person,
lacking the innate sense of warmth
lacking emotions
but all these are built into me, and i cant change that
many a times this has happened,
whether in class, in cca, or in any other places
sometimes i feel really lost
sometimes i feel psyched up to do the stuff and i have a clear mind

thats just me i think
i tried to stop playing the computer
and its like an inner conflict
and i dun feel like talking about it, dno why
but thats me
i cant find anyone that can understand me

another day...
writing is always good...

And I realized...
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